alone again naturally and never alone actually

In little while from now, if i'm not feeling any less sour, i'm promised myself to treat myself and visit a nearby tower and climbing to the top, will throw myself off in an effort to make it clear to who ever what it's like when you're shattered.

left standing in the lurch, at fort where peoples are saying " My god he's tough, he stood her up"
no point in us remaining. May as well go home as i did on my own, alone again naturally.

to think that only yesterday, i was cheerful, bright and great, looking foward to but who wouldn't do the role i was about to play.

but as if to knock me down,reality came around and without so much as a mere touch cut me into little pieces, leaving me to doubt all about god and his mercy for if he's really does exist and why he desert me in the hour of need? i truly am indeed and i'm alone again naturally

it seem to me that are more hearts broken in the world thant can't be mended, left unattended, what do we do? what do will i do?

now looking back over the years,and what ever else that appears, i remember i cried when she went died never wishing to cried the tears and at twenty-six years old, my god, rest her soul
couldnt understand, why the only girl i had ever love had been taken leaving me the heart to start, so badly broken despite encouragement from others, no word that ever spoken and when she passed away, i cried and cried, alone agin naturally

but now thing has change, my broken heart mend again, i meet the face i wanted to be until the time i will taken away, her tenderly touch melt me down, she repaired me back and turned me into someone who i really missed; myself.

she casted me away from my pretendenesses, my alter-egoistic, my sadness, my cloud-never-sunny-days. now i never alone actually

now my heart been attended, leaving the unattended, the sunny, bright and great comes, prosperous and joyous arrives, carrying me to the top, and am promise myself to treat myself again, to visit the nearby tower, but not throw off myslef but to scream top of my long
"i never alone actually" i never alone actually...

while am stand in lurch, someone steps and stood beside me, holding my hand taken me away, walk hand in hand, and patiently and honestly watching the role i was about to play and vanished the pain of remembering that no one woulnt do the role i wanted to do before.

now im coming home, coming back to myself, and this time, i never alone, i never alone actually. as if i did it by my own and there's she , always be there, encouragement, the exicitement, stood by me, told me that she's will always be there, to carrying me home when am get weak, put a smile while am smiless, give me strenght to go on while the hope is running die.

now i see, i never alone actually...

now i know, i never alone actually

she had taken away the hatred, the enraged, the fears, the phobic the anger, and turned into something smoothen and mild,

i never alone actually





i love u halida